I'm not always this melancholy, I promise

So I write poetry and song lyrics sometimes, but it's usually when I'm feeling my worst. Luckily, those times are few and far between these days, but because that's the only time I write, it seems, if you read my stuff, like that's how I feel all the time! Totally not true. So I'd like to share a song I wrote the other day, just bear in mind that I'm NOT feeling like this now! At least I can constructively use my sad moods, right?

Why can't I trust the world?

And trust myself to them

I'm fighting a lie

Living without a life

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And I remember

the years I lost

believing an illusion

following the reason

I have these scars

Why can't I fall in love?

And give myself to him

I'm dying alive

But I can't bring myself to survive

(chorus)

I feel the pain of all I'm losing

But I lost control to heal it.

I'm scared to be alone, and scared to trust someone...

(chorus)