Five Fast Findings

It's been a while, but I had some random thoughts to share today:

1. I hate funerals. Hate them. I will do anything to avoid a funeral. And a viewing. At my grandpa's funeral, I refused to look at his body in the casket. Because that wasn't my grandpa, it was simply what he had left behind. Funerals, similarly, are just pointless because the person DIED. They are not around to enjoy the funeral. Sure, you can argue they are watching from above, but that doesn't matter to me, the person who is now suffering through 2 hours of people trying mightily to joke instead of cry about the person. No thanks. I refuse.

2. I also hate wedding receptions. I think the thing is, only weddings and funerals will be enough motivation to gather some families together, and that just feels so false to me. If you're really family, and if you're really connected, then you won't really even need a funeral or a reception, because you guys all had an impromptu gathering the moment it happened anyway! Perhaps that's just me being naive and watching too many movies, but I hope hope hope that my future family is tight and yet inclusive. I want my kids to bring random people home for the holidays. I want them to gather together on their own because they're friends as well as siblings, without needing the matriarch and patriarch to organize get-togethers. I want my grandkids to pop by without notice, just to say hey. So I think that's why I don't like funerals and weddings. If you weren't close enough to see everyone without the excuse of a reception or the funeral luncheon, then why bother?

3. I need a What Not To Wear makeover. I'm still wearing things that are like 6 years old. A few items (not many, thank goodness) are actually holdouts from high school. Why? Because a) I don't have money to get a brand new wardrobe, b) I'm always hoping I'll lose weight, or I will lose weight and then gain it back later, and c) I have a terrible eye for fashion and what looks good. I can pull together a fantastic photo shoot or organize a perfect art display or design my own beadwork, but the second you throw me in a store and expect me to piece something together, I'm totally lost.

4. I want to visit Puerto Rico. I just watched a What Not To Wear with a girl from P.R., and it just seems fun. Plus, you don't need a passport, but it's still "spicy" and traveling out of the country.

5. I just completed my first law school final exam. Mostly, I'm grateful that my toughest class was the first exam because I had more time to study and also got it out of the way faster, plus, every exam is just easier from here. But dang. It takes a long time to recuperate. I got home at about noon, zoned out to an episode of Psych, and then halfway through, nodded off and took an unplanned 3-hour nap. Plus, I need to do laundry and take a shower, but the thought just overwhelms me. My brain is so burned out. I'd been studying nonstop for this exam for the past week, and I was spent. Last night, at Taco Bell, I forgot the name of the Cheesy Fiesta Potatoes, even though I've been ordering them for years. Now, I have to turn around and start studying for my Civil Procedure exam on Thursday. say what? I'm so done with finals already, but this was only the first of three!